I don’t know what else to be but me.

I am standing here before you, broken

And empty.

A shell of myself.

Not devoid of love. Quite the contrary.

So full of you. So full of life.

The crisp air on my cheeks stirs my insides

Attempting to awake me.

But here I stand.

No map.

Not sure where to go. Not sure what to do.

Every step forward is full of fear.

On rotted floorboards. Will I fall through?

I just keep guessing

Keep praying

Keep moving forward until the path is found.

Or forged, I guess.

I don’t do it to leave you alone.

Pain is never my intention.

But standing still

Terrifies

Me.

Shakes me to my core.

Falling into darkness.

So I stand here, broken.

You see me, all of me, naked

Until I take the next step.

Grab my hand in case the floor gives way and I fall

Into nothing.

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